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2020.06.16:

Recent journal entries are currently scrapped in the case that my coworkers find my site. Might put back up at a later time.

2020.06.26: I am entering a new chapter in my life. I no longer desire to buy music as much as I used to anymore. I want to start saving a lot of money to fund the electrostatic audio dream (STAX 007/009S + KGSSHV Carbon CC), home theater, and just in general when I get back home to my new apartment.

With that - I will be selling probably almost my entire doujin music CD collection when I get back from deployment. Check out my physical album collection here. It is severely outdated by over a year but theres still quite a lot. Also check out my Discogs here. It is more up to date but many album entries are still missing in the database. My contact email address is rainheaven@riseup.net.

I don't really have the time right now to price every album so if you are interested in any albums I have - Please just include it in your list and I will 'quote' you a price for the album via email. You may then determine and reply back what you actually want to order. I plan to ship internationally because I know that the doujin music community is all over the world :) I will update my physical album collection list to indicate what albums have been reserved by annotating *reserved* to the right of the album name. If the album is on my Discogs list but not on my physical album collection list then I will add it at the top of the list and indicate it as reserved.

The very 'rough' general priceline will be $3 for EPs / short albums and $7 for longer albums. Event exclusive and out of stock albums will be $5 for EPs / short albums and $10 for longer albums for the most part. This should be the pricing for about 80-90% of all my albums. Albums that I consider to be of higher value due to rarity or collection value will be higher up to about $25-$50. I have some very rare albums that can't really be found anywhere which may go up to as much as $200 but I only have a handful of those.

Payment will be via Paypal. I will not be taking payment until I am back home. I do not want to take payment if I am unable to ship. I will update everyone what my Paypal email address is when I am able to ship. For now - Albums can be 'reserved' until then. First come, first serve.

I might be able to start shipping physical albums on the 3rd and 4th week of July depending on the condition of my Military base due to the coronavirus. Supposedly my Military base is in HPCON Charlie right now which means that we literally can't do anything that isn't 'essential' which includes going to the post office to ship off packages. If the Military base is still in HPCON Charlie by the time I get back then I might not be able to ship out albums until the 2nd week of September because I will be away from home again for almost all of August due to the Military once again. This will be the first time I ever sell my albums and selling physical goods in general so I will have to figure out shipping methods and costs and such.

I know there is a lot of people on the doujin music Discord server that would be interested. Please spread the news.

2020.06.29: I know I say this a lot that I haven't written in my journal recently but today is the perfect day to write something. Today is the first time I have ever drank alcohol in my life. While it probably wouldn't be a good idea to give out my exact age to the internet - I figure it won't matter too much as long as no one finds out my real life identity. I am 23 years old. I am well over 2 years past the legal drinking age of 21 in the United States yet this is the first time I have drank alcohol. As I am writing this now I am still mildly drunk.

Supposedly when a US naval ship has been at sea for 45 days or more they are authorized a beer day. Typically no alcohol is allowed at all except with the special exception of this beer day. This is also the one and only day that I do not have to work every single day since deployment which was nice and weird at the same time. I slept in past the usual time I woke up for once. I got to wear civilian clothes for once. I didn't have to be on time at work for once. I didn't take a shower the previous night because I was somewhat upset that I didn't go to brunch with my female friend that day so I took a shower in the morning instead which is very unusual on the ship. I wore my usual flight deck uniform and went to my shop to find that only one coworker was there chilling and playing Grand Theft Auto V. I got on my work laptop reading technology news. There was an article on Edward Snowden saying that people into tech should be careful and think about the tech companies they work for in terms of morals and ethics. I still have my mind set on maybe going into Cybersecurity which is still a part of technology. He is most certainly correct - It would make me feel very bad if I worked for a big monolithic tech company such as Facebook, Google, and any other big tech company. One thing that I can say for certain is that money can never buy me. I exist for the benefit of the people and that will never change.

I emailed my female friend Monk and said that I'm sorry that I didn't return her phone call when she called asking to go to brunch. I wasn't having a good day that day because things didn't seem to go 'right' which lead me to being stressed and angry. She asked if I wanted to go to lunch today up on the flight deck and I said sure. Not long ago later she emailed back saying that she didn't want to go anymore because she had ramen and she was feeling tired staying up all night. And she changed her mind again because she heard that there was a specific type of beer being served on the flight deck from a brand named Yuengling lol. Supposedly this brand of alcohol is very good so she decided to stay up and get a taste of it. We went together to the flight deck with my two coworkers. There was maybe 5 or 6 long lines for beer all sorted by last name alphabetical order. Luckily I was in the correct line at the very beginning so it didn't take long to get my two beers. At the front of the line you have to get your military ID checked on a muster sheet or something to make sure that you haven't been in the line more than once so that everyone has a chance to drink beer. Monk had to wait in line for like 20 minutes which was pretty long. After getting out of line I met up with my two other coworkers and drank my two beers for the first time in my life. I got two Yuenglings type of canned beer. Everyone was pretty excited because it was the first time I have ever drank alcohol and took pictures and such. Monk was excited as well. I didn't like the taste of Yuengling and I didn't really feel much at first. I felt rather normal. After drinking the first can is when I started to slightly feel the effects of alcohol. My vision won't blur for only a single can of beer but moving my head and body felt rather sluggish or slow. It was definitely a weird experience. I was on guard and cautious because I didn't want to do or say anything stupid. My behavior and personality were the same but occasionally my words were prolonged. Drinking the 2nd can of beer made the effects of alcohol stronger but I was still mildly drunk. Walking to places felt super strange and foreign. I had a good time talking with my coworkers though. Unfortunately everyone is only allowed 2 beers. I am now pretty interested how it feels like to be seriously drunk but only as an experiment. I wouldn't want to get hang over and start puking not even occasionally. I'm not going to start drinking often just because of this experience. Drinking alcohol on a daily basis isn't really worth my money especially if I drink alone I feel. When I get back home I do want to try updating my journal more often - Preferrably every Friday or weekend. I am kind of curious if drinking alcohol would make me want to write in my journal more often. I also want to try the more fruity flavors of alcohol instead of just beer. I do want to enjoy a good drink but beer doesn't quite cut it so far.


2020.07.02: Today was a depressing day for everyone in my squadron. I came into work and noticed that the internet is down because we are in RIVERCITY 1. RIVERCITY 1 is only set when a critical event on the ship has happened. It is used to limit all communications outside of the ship. It is used to ensure that faulty information isn't leaked to the outside world and social media. After all the facts and evidence is gathered and a conclusion is made - The CO speaks to everyone on what happened. We then go back to our normal internet access. The last few times RIVERCITY 1 was set was when it was discovered that coronavirus was onboard, an aircraft flew into the ocean but the pilots were safe, and now the death of a Chief Petty Officer in my squadron. The squadron had a very sudden command quarters. Command quarters is used to muster up every person in the squadron for important information, announcements, awards, etc. Every person, including having to wake up those on night shift, had to be at command quarters. Thats around ~220 people rounded up in about 20 minutes. Our CO told us that one of our Chief Petty Officers had passed away from a heart attack while working night shift. He was in his mid-30s and had a wife. He did have kids. It was super sudden. Everyone was shocked. Some people cried. The rest of the day was depressing and quiet. To think that someone you work with on a daily basis can just disappear so suddenly was so surreal especially if they were a genuinely great person. We were almost at the end of deployment. All we had left was 7 more days and he could have saw his family, friends, and wife. Thinking from the wifes' perspective - It is scary to think that the person you love the most is now just gone. You would expect to see them again at the end of deployment after waiting for a long period of time but instead they're just suddenly gone and won't return. The kids will live on without a father. I can just imagine how much that would hurt mentally.