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Spring 2019 Archive

2019.07.08: Working like normal until my Japanese coworker asks me. She bought some wireless bluetooth IEMs from the store for maybe around $100. She was confused and expected wired IEMs so now she is going return them. Apparently she can't fucking read that the front and back of the box literally says 'SUPERIOR WIRELESS SOUND' and the picture showing no earphone cable with headphone hack but instead two IEM pieces cabled together. I keep having to repeat this all the time but her level of incompetence is far and beyond. She should really just go back to her flip phone and call it a day.

Apparently we got a temporary summer hire worker until mid-late August for work. We honestly don't even need one since we're pretty much taking care of things ourselves. He was a 14 year old Asian teenager which is pretty damn young to be working. He will be working 8 hours Monday to Friday but for only $6.75/hour. The government cucked him even lower than minimum wage in most states wew. Before he came we were having a hard time just thinking of what he should even do for us. We ended up just making him clean tools used for aircraft maintenance for now. A lot of tools rust and corrode pretty fast and this was actually a good opportunity to tidy up our tool program I guess. He doesn't really seem to care that much about being here just by observing him on his first day here though. He rarely talks, not really enthusiastic about work, keeps his Apple earpods in his ears, see him using his iPhone a bit, doesn't really care about talking to the civilians, didn't say goodbye to us when he left at the end of the day... It just makes me wonder why he is even here. Either his parents forced him to take up a job for experience or he just wants play money. Not saying that those are bad things but he could be a bit brighter.

2019.07.07: Real emotional support hours. My Japanese coworker has robbed me of 7 1/2 hours today. I should be paid for my time woman!!! Just kidding. Apparently reading Reddit /r/relationships for a few hours has made me an expert mentor when my Japanese coworker asks me for relationship advice. After lunch time she asked me to meet at the Military base library that almost nobody goes to. Its always dead there with very little people which also makes it nice because it is always quiet and peaceful. Fortunately she didn't really ask me for much technological assistance today. She got some double 'A' batteries for an old cheaper model camera which I thought was needed in order to get the pictures off of the SD memory card. The camera contains pictures of her son's school trip which was supposedly pretty important to him. I replaced the batteries with the newer ones and connected the camera to her Microsoft Surface tablet/laptop. The laptop gives an error message saying that it can't detect and read the fucking camera. Then I decided to see if the computers provided by the library happen to have SD card slots which they did. Luckily they actually did. I put the SD card into the slot of one computer and got the pictures into her personal external HDD and onto her son's external HDD. After that she asked me questions for an hour straight about her relationship issues with the married man that she became emotionally attached to. Some new information that she revealed to me was that he actually has two children who are now in their 20s and that she had lunch with him in a public food court. While it sounded like nothing special - a random friend of the married man's wife that happened to be there took a picture of them together on their smartphone and had 'anonymously' sent it to the wife via Facebook Messenger app. The wife I'm sure was pretty furious and jealous and I didn't hear the details of what kind of mess he is in now.

My Japanese coworker kept asking analytical and situational questions to me for an hour straight. It was like "Do you think I should have said yes to him when he asked me to be with him even though he wasn't officially divorced but separated?" No. "What if he decided that he was going to stay for another year? He is leaving earlier because he is heart broken due to me." No because he was trying to pressure, manipulate, guilt trip, force you to make a decision too soon. "Why am I so heart broken even though we were never together and when he was still married?" He appeared in your life at a time when your mother is now stuck in a retirement home, all important and good friends (Including me) are all leaving within a year, and he gave you self-confidence and the attention that you liked. Her best friend thinks that she is mistaking her feelings of love for companionship which makes sense to me. And a bunch of other questions that I don't remember as vividly anymore.

After that for a few hours, she asked me to research some websites for making friends and men to date. Mind you, I never looked up these websites before and don't know shit about any of them. I just type in Okinawa meetup in the search engine and bam - Found some meetup website. There looks to be a decent amount of groups that she can join and meet up with people. I was going to have her register an account but it turns out that she already had an account. A lot of the groups seemed inactive which kinda sucks. Then I found a group that does language exchange and it was very active - There was language exchange meetups at a big mall every Tuesday and Friday night. They also did other events occasionally such as trekking and going to food restaurants. This seemed like a perfect oppurtunity for her to meet up and make friends literally. She had some questions about stuff like age range and if there were any Military people so I advised her to contact the group organizer. Of course I had to show her how to do that but atleast she got the message sent. To my surprise the group organizer responded very, very quickly within 10 minutes. I wasn't expecting that she would have to wait for several hours to two days in the least but this was nice. Turns out that the group organizer was a 57 year old Japanese woman which was also much older than I expected. She was very kind and responded to my coworker's questions clearly and swiftly. She said that there was a LINE group chat which wasn't mentioned in the group's description. My coworker joined the group chat and quite a bit of people welcomed her which was quite touching to her. I'm pretty confident that my Japanese coworker will be able to meet people and make friends this way. I keep telling her that she is a great talker and somehow always finds things to talk about which I'm pretty sure isn't that common.

Moving forward I had her sign up for a dating website which had a fair amount of people in Okinawa. There seems to be quite a bit of shady people there but she was atleast aware of that. The website requires filling out some pretty personal information such as weight and height which kind of made me cringe. Online dating just looking at this website seems like a huge miss and a lot can go wrong. I will never online date myself since it is a privacy nightmare and definitely doesn't seem like it is worth the hassle. She noticed that she actually recognized a man from work and didn't click his profile in case it left digital fingerprints. She wanted to contact someone but her account was 'unverified' and had to wait 24-48 hours to be verified by a staff member of the site so nothing else we could really do here. I had also signed her up to some penpal website. She said it looked slow and probably not very good and I agreed. She got a 'hi' message and a personal message from two different men fairly quickly though. The man that sent her a personal message was from Malaysia which she wasn't really interested in anyone that wasn't on the island already.

The library was going to close soon so we started packing up. My Japanese coworker got a phone call from her best friend and they were talking for like 20 minutes. She told me that she needed to find articles on how to cope with 'loss of friends and loved ones' and print them out so she can read them at home and opted not to use her smartphone for looking that stuff up. She was having a hard time coping with being heartbroken because of the married man. Her best friend had told her that she needs to get over it eventually because it has been months already. Found some quick decent articles and printed them out for her. I installed the Reddit app for her because it is an excellent source of information on whatever topic you can think of. I told her about /r/relationships and that it would be great for her to receive human responses on her relationship issues. I will be helping her with that at a later time.

We went out to eat at a traditional Japanese restaurant which we frequented pretty often. Had great healthy food with balanced portions. We could have ate and left after 30 minutes but she stretched it out to 1 hour 30 minutes with her fucking questions again. This time she actually wrote down my responses that she thought was important to remember. Her best friend told her to do that. She asked me quite a bit of minor questions but wrote down the responses to her more important questions. First thing she wrote down was "Even if I like a married man who promises to divorce her husband, until he is 100% divorced, I will not bother with him (and will not make promises that I will be with him or wait for him)." She asked me that if I really liked a woman enough to want to be in a relationship with her but found out that she was married if I would consider to be with her if she divorced. I said that I would not even think about it until she is 100% divorced. I'll look at official paperwork if I have to. Then she told me a story about how her best friend's guy friend aged around 50 was working full time minimum wage at a convenient store while being in a relationship with a woman that had two kids. Because he didn't earn a lot and they were not officially married they were able to receive government money or whatever. He wasn't allowed to spend any money on himself at all. If he tried to - the woman would LITERALLY CUT him with a knife. Anytime he did something that she did not like she would cut him. The cuts were not deep enough to send him to the hospital but light enough to keep him in fear. Holy fucking shit what an abusive and controlling woman! Absolutely run away from her as far as possible! And so my Japanese coworker's question was "If you were in a romantic relationship that involved violence or weapons, would you stay with them?" Of course, absolutely fucking not. Physical abuse and threats is an absolute no-no and I would instantly separate if a loved one did that to anyone if it wasn't for self-defense. She jotted that down. This lead to her next question: "After he seperated with his wife - She threatened to kill herself with a knife and attempted to drown herself in a bathtub. I mentioned to him that this if very concerning and to advise him to be careful but he took offense to this instead and didn't understand. Do you think my advice was wrong?" Hell no - Your advice was exactly what he needed but unfortunately he is in denial that he should be careful of the woman he was with for 20 years. People wanting to kill themselves because the other person wants to leave the relationship is not supposed to be a normal thing. She needs help - Professional therapy. The wife is getting that at least. Jotted. She asked me if there was anything I should to mention to her going forward with her future relationships. I said to check for red flags to avoid potential relationship issues further down especially if they are not fixable. Jotted. She asked me "Do you think the man I was attached to is a red flag?" Yes - For the reasons I already mentioned probably twice already. Jotted. Last question: "How long would it take for you to cope with being depressed or heartbroken after it was made clear that it wouldn't work or if you've broken up?" I told her that I have never been in a relationship before so I can't say for sure but I am an extremely logical person and that I don't really see myself being depressed for any more than a few days at most. She started focusing on the word 'logical' and then thought how her situation wasn't logical and that it was pretty stupid in the end. Jotted. Now every so often she will look at this list to remind herself of things to look for when looking for men to date and hopefully get into a romantic relationship with. She thanked me very much for my time and for being a great friend. I said you're welcome (While wondering when the fuck we were going to leave because people that got here later than we did are leaving before we do at this point). I wanted to go home after all these nerve racking questions. Finally we left and I didn't have to think anymore.

2019.07.03: Fuck this clothes shit. Another rant with my Japanese coworker.

This fucking bitch has the nerve to call me and ask for help at 8:30PM with her new Android phone. She has decided that she has had enough with Apple/iPhone and decided to make the switch. She was under a 2 year phone contract and would have been unable to switch without paying a cancellation fee until December but it turns out that because she was paying for insurance or something similar that she was eligable to trade in her iPhone and buy whatever Android phone she wanted for a significantly reduced price which was a pretty nice deal. The only place on Military base that was still open and had free wifi was the USO which was open until 9:00PM so we did not exactly have a lot of time at all. We ended up just going to her house once we have reached the closing time of the USO so I could continue setting up the Android phone for her. She constantly worries about using her data although she barely even understands it. She asked me for help installing some apps and of course I am annoyed that she can't even learn to do that herself but to be fair she has never really used Android before so whatever. I show her the exact steps to installing apps with the Google Play Store. One of the nice things on my part is that she didn't really use much apps at all (Most likely because shes too dumb to find apps to install and use). I installed Signal, LINE, Facebook Messenger, Instagram, Booking.com, and an app named SNOW. Then she asked me if I could transfer all her messages, videos, pictures that were in the apps to her Android phone. She really has a thing about wanting to keep every god damn thing. For Signal on iOS, it turns out that there is no option to export messages and transfer to different devices. There are instructions on how to do this with Android but they specifically state they it can't be done with iOS. Nice fucking job Apple. I had to suggest to her that her best choice is to probably take screenshots or write/type it down if she really care that much. We tried to log into her LINE account only two times and LINE ended up deleting all her previous messages, videos, and photos automatically upon logging in on a different device. Nothing that we could have really done here. Facebook Messenger seems to have kept everything in place with no fuss which is good atleast. By the time we got to the Instagram app I found that she has a difficult time remembering her account details for shit. She can't get a bunch of videos and photos off of iCloud from Apple because she doesn't remember the password that was used. Good job tech illiterate woman. She pretty much forgot her account details for her Instagram account and she would have lost that too if she didn't have her iPhone with her Instagram account still logged in. She created a 'burner' Gmail account under a username she would not have remembered at all. At this point I had to suggest her to write down her account details on a piece of paper, use a password manager (Too advanced for her anyway), or atleast fucking something so she doesn't end up losing accounts because of her incompetence. We got her signed into Booking.com pretty easily atleast. SNOW is some sort of camera app so there was nothing to do for that one. After all that she mentions that she will need 'training' to use all her apps, using a new smartphone OS, and how to transfer files. At that moment I thought that the few things I hate more than anything else is tech illiterate people and people that can't think for themselves and try to solve their own issues. She told me that her ex-husband has done every little technology-related thing for her before which is why she is the way she is now. I would like to say this to you ex-husband - Fuck you reeee !!! You should have made her learn that fucking shit. We have done whatever we could for the night and she drove me back to her barracks.

Now this is the more interesting part of my Japanese coworker. I know I talk a lot of shit about her when it comes to technology but for everything else she is a great woman without a doubt. I never expected for this to happen but we ended up talking for over an hour about her love life and future loneliness. She is in her upper 40s but she is a very cute, healthy, and physically fit woman for her age. Normally you wouldn't associate the word 'cute' with fairly aged people but this is definitely one of the rare cases! While she isn't in a rush to find a new lover she was worried that maybe she isn't as attractive anymore and that it would be difficult to find men her age. I told her honestly that if she were my age or if I was her age that I would most definitely marry her (ignoring her technology illiteracy) if given the chance. This is not a lie either - She really is a great woman and I hope that she finds happiness. Before she told me about her relationship issues she has consulted with her best friend in mainland Japan as a mentor. She was very happy to hear that from me. Her best friend's thoughts on the relationship were pretty spot on. She told me that she started becoming emotionally attached to a slightly older man that she works with. The man was in his 50s but was already married with a woman for over 20 years long. She said that she was not originally attached to him and not really physically attractive at all but he seemed to have a good heart and has put in effort for self-improvement which was visible. He also started getting emotionally attached to her and he even self-improved because of her but she would not give in due to the fact that he was married. The more time they spent together the more that they started to fall for each other. They weren't officially dating or anything but they just liked talking to each other. He got really serious and ended up seperating with his wife for a little bit. The wife became severely depressed taking pictures of herself with a knife and attempted suicide by drowning herself in the bath tub in the restroom of their home. Supposedly the wife comes from a 3rd world country, is very obsessed with him, and is very content with his wealth which has resulted in this predicament. Fortunately she is atleast going to therapy over it. While my Japanese coworker liked him she wouldn't give in for as long as he stayed married which is a smart decision. She has been asking him for months if he was ever going to get a divorce or not. He didn't give clear answers and was wish-washy with his responses. He couldn't let go of the memories of his wife and still loved his wife as well. It doesn't really make sense to want to be in a relationship with another woman while still holding onto memories with the woman you gave up on. He asked her if she was going to be with him and that if she didn't give an answer that he would stay with his wife. He was persistent with that question for months. She couldn't give him an answer because he was still married. If he was divorced then she could have replied. This was a form of manipulation, selfishness, and an attempt to guilt trip her into being in a relationship with him in a pressured manner which is a pretty big red flag. He didn't really think about her emotions or feelings about it. The man was also going to leave the island soon in a few months due to a promotion for his job and had to go back to the United States. He was going to be sad himself if she was going to refuse to him and so she asked me the question if they should still talk before he has to leave. I said that it wouldn't be a good idea for them both of them and it would only hurt them further emotionally. You can't avoid the inevitable and it wouldn't be a good idea for her to keep talking to him when hes still married and emotionally heartbroken. She plans on taking her best friend's and my advice and to stay away from him for the rest of his time still here. For the loneliness part - My Japanese coworker mentions that she will miss me and a couple of her other American friends when we are gone. All of her Japanese friends are up in mainland and she doesn't really have much deep and strong friendship here in Okinawa so she will be dealing with loneliness pretty soon. While I don't really have any friends here, don't really ever feel loneliness myself, and am very much more logical than emotional - I can atleast understand her loneliness. She is a very extroverted, caring, kind, and loving person. It will be a bit harder to find quality people and a lover within her age range. She has asked me if I could research websites or apps for meeting people on the island which I would be happy to do so.

2019.07.02: With the new anime season starting and my journal section getting pretty big, I have archived all of my previous journal entries of the season into Spring 2019 Archive.

I know I haven't really written anything in forever. I have gotten pretty lazy and continuing to try to rip all the CDs I bought from Surugaya. I have pretty much ripped around 600 CDs in 6 months and am still not done yet lol.

I have been thinking for a while about clothes these past two weeks. I haven't bought any clothes (besides one pair of pajamas) in over 3 years now. For the most part, I don't really care much about how I look as long as I look decent and within Military standards. I've found a couple of things about clothes for the past 3 years... One thing to remember is that I don't really have any friends here and nobody really knows or pays attention to me. Right now I have a lot of clothes that were shipped to me from my sister when I was still in high school but find that I wear almost none of them. Its all just taking space for no reason. I wear maybe 5 to 7 t-shirts, 5 work t-shirts, and 1 pair of jeans every single week. I used to have those regular cheap white cotton socks that you'd get from any regular clothing store. I'd wash my t-shirts and socks after only a single day of use. I'd wash the jeans once a week but I think I eventually just stopped washing them so often. Reading digdeeper's article, specifically when he talks about clothes and how they don't last as long as they used to, made me start thinking about my laundry habits and wearing clothes in general. I would like to prolong my clothes for as long as possible and to reduce the amount of laundry I do. After researching and learning from Reddit, I have found that I have been doing my laundry wrong the entire time and have started to notice that my clothes are quite pilled but does not have any holes. A lot of my cheap shit white socks have developed holes and I don't really do any intense excerises or run much. I always did a fair amount of laundry weekly with Tide pods and use the washer and dryer at the default settings here. The default settings are high temperature for 1 hour. Higher temperatures ruins clothes and weakens the fiber material. What I really should be doing is wearing my clothes *as needed*. I wore the same work t-shirt as an undershirt underneath my blouse Monday to Friday as an experiment and the t-shirt doesn't really smell except near the armpit area. Now I know for a fact that I don't need to put a t-shirt in my laundry bag after a single use. I've been wearing the same pair of jeans for several months without washing and they just never seemed to smell. I didn't really know why but then I found out that not washing jeans for several months is actually common and recommended. Sadly I don't think any other piece of clothing can go that long without washing. Instead of using those cheap white cotton socks, I decided to buy Darn Touch Merino wool socks and boot socks. Holy shit these socks are heavenly! They feel very comfortable, durable, keeps my feet warm or cool depending on the weather, are very resistant to odors, have a lifetime warranty no questions asked etc. Normally you'd expect to wear different pairs of socks everyday but I find myself wearing the same pair of socks once a week because they surprisingly just don't smell because of the merino wool. That shit is just magical. I had a good friend that kept raving about some underwear from a company named Saxx. He said they're incredibly comfortable to the point that you'd want to wear them over being naked, they cup your balls nicely, keeps moisture away and stuff. They're pretty pricey for only one pair ($32/ea) but I decided to bite the bullet and upgrade from my cheap Hanes boxers. He is not wrong at all. Just touching them for the first time - They are incredibly soft and nice to the touch! It makes the old Hane boxers feel very rough and not pleasing in comparison. I kind of wish I had researched men's underwear a bit more but I will stick with Saxx for now. Underwear is the one piece of clothing that gets dirty the quickest. I will probably be wearing the same underwear for up to two days at the most. I still wear my same old t-shirts from years ago but am looking into buying some merino wool blend t-shirts as well. Merino wool being resistant to odors can not be understated any further - It is the real deal (Atleast for me in my experience so far). I am tired right now and will write more later...